“Test always your strength, for therein lies success.” –2nd Point of Satanism [Black Book of Satan I]
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115 yf
“So, do you consider yourself a Communist?” Dr. Annis stared straight into Rick’s eyes from across his desk.
“No.” Rick replied. “I give two shits about all people. Just mine. My Family.”
“Hmm.” Annis looked at the organized chaos of paperwork on his oak table. “Mr. Ruiz, you have no blood relatives on record. Are you referring to your gang?”
Rick laughed. “Yeah, whatever doc. My gang. It’s so much more than that if you bothered to think outside your shell.”
“Mr. Ruiz, I detect hostility in your voice when I bring up the people in your gang. Am I hitting a soft spot? Am I getting to you?”
“My Family is my strength, doc. On the contrary.”
“People that are convicted bank robbers, burglars and pimps? I find that they are your weakness, Mr. Ruiz. Then you wouldn’t find yourself in prison again.”
“These ‘crimes’ are but means. Fuck it. I don’t need to tell you shit. C.O.! Get me the fuck outta here!”
From behind Ruiz, the door opened and a burly corrections officer stepped into the prison psychiatrist’s office.
“Stand up, Ruiz.” he said.
Ruiz obliged and as if cued, put his hands behind his back. The officer put handcuffs on Ruiz for the walk back to the cellblock.
“Wait.” Dr. Annis stood up and walked to catch up with Ruiz and his escort. “What is your deal, Ruiz? You talk tough, but I see you reading books that I read when I was studying for my Doctorate. Let’s cut through the chase already. What makes you tick?”
Ruiz, with his back towards Dr. Annis, smiled. The corrections officer was still walking away with Ruiz. “All I want is what”s coming. Simple as that doc. Simple as that. I’ll see you next Thursday. I’d like to talk to you about you S.P.S. diagnosis.”
“S.P.S.?” Annis asked.
“Small Penis Syndrome.” Ruiz said indifferently. The C.O. suppressed a snicker.
Dr. Annis also suppressed a snicker and watched Ruiz walk away. He looked forward to hearing from Ruiz again.
1
120 yf
The N.Y.C. Department of Corrections bus stopped and Ruiz stepped out. He deeply inhaled the air of Astoria, Queens and looked around. He watched as airplanes departed and arrived in the distance at LaGuardia Airport.
“Hey, Ruiz.” the C.O. behind driving the bus said. “Step away from the bus or the warden will decide to keep you.”
Ruiz smiled and waved at the C.O. He didn’t hate all the cops and C.O.’s. He knew that they were just pawns in the mundane world for the most part.
A lone figure walked toward Ruiz as he followed the C.O.’s request. Ruiz stopped and smiled.
“Jimmy, you motherfucker!” Rick smiled.
Jimmy O’Connor ran towards Rick and embraced him.
“We’ve got some partying to do. The girls are waiting, dude.”
Ruiz looked towards another departing plane. “I just need to stop at the airport first.”
“Holy shit! It’s fuckin’ Thanksgiving weekend! Do you have any idea how the traffic’s gunna be in that place? What’s next, you wanna go to Macy’s tomorrow at nine? Did the C.O.’s whack you in the melon once too many times?”
“I have to see her, Jimmy. Seriously.” Rick turned somber. “She still works there?”
“Yeah. She’s still there.” Jimmy groaned.
“Good. Let’s go. Road beers on me.”
“Fuck no. Too many Port Authority cops doing traffic at the airport.”
Rick smiled. “Yeah, bad idea. Got any trees?”
“I rolled a fatty and it’s in the glove.” Jimmy smiled back.
Rick and Jimmy put on a Megadeth c.d. and smoked as they made their way towards LaGuardia Airport.
2
Jimmy pulled the black Nissan Sentra in front of the arrivals area at the U.S. Air terminal almost two hours later. The high from the marijuana was long gone.
“Rick, if you come out and I’m not here just wait. They’re gunna make me move.”
“Okay.” Rick smiled. “Gimme a piece of gum.”
Rick ran through the terminal in eager anticipation. He hasn’t seen Tanya in six years since his arrest after the last bank job. Tanya was driving and luckily received a two year sentence. A serious legal error and much research done by Rick had reduced his sentence by almost a third.
An attractive Asian woman in her twenties dressed conservatively held up a sign reading “Runnels.” She glanced at Rick then looked away. Then she looked again. Her face could not hide her pain.
“Rick. You’re out. I can’t talk right now, I’m working. Can I just call you later?”
Rick stopped short of Tanya. He wasn’t going to get a “Get out of jail” embrace.
“I don’t have a phone. Can I come back when you get off work?”
“Rick. I have a new life. Didn’t they tell you I got married?”
Rick felt his chest tighten. “Does he make you laugh?”
“He doesn’t make me cry.” Tanya said flatly.
Rick began to walk away. He looked back at Tanya and smiled.
“I’ll be back and I’ll keep coming back. I love you and I know that you love me too. You know that the only time that you ever felt alive your whole life was when we together.”
Tanya looked away. “You’d better go.”
“You still take your coffee black?”
Tanya ignored him and looked towards the arriving passengers.
Ten minutes later, Rick came back with a large cup of coffee and a bag with a chocolate donut and a blueberry muffin. He noticed Tanya helping a tall attractive lady with her baggage into a waiting black Lincoln Town Car. He waited for Tanya to see the wealthy socialite off and then approached Tanya.
“We used to steal from assholes like that. Remember, baby? This isn’t you. This isn’t you at all.” Rick whispered into Tanya’s ear with her back turned to him.
Tanya closed her eyes. “Yeah. The rich bitch didn’t even tip me.”
“Wanna take a break?”
“I got three hours until my next flight.” she looked at him curiously.
Rick smiled as Tanya turned around. She laughed as he handed her the large coffee cup and paper bag.
3
Rick and Jimmy stepped into the large mini-mansion in Port Jefferson, Long Island. The cloudy skies and the surrounding trees made for a Sinister, yet consoling backdrop.
An older attractive redhead with a summer dress with orange floral print greeted them at the door.
“It’s great to see you, Rick!” she greeted him with a more than sisterly embrace and slid her hand to his crotch. Rick felt himself become erect. “Hmm, lonely, weren’t we? Let’s fix that.” She smiled at Jimmy in silent greeting.
Susannah walked away and picked up her cell phone. Rick and Jimmy followed Susannah into the spacious living room. The burly corrections officer from the prison psychiatrists’s office five years ago was seated in the couch nearest to the doorway. He was dressed in a black t-shirt and black jeans. He stood up and embraced Rick in greeting.
“Been taking care of business, Andy?” Rick said to the C.O.
“Citrine, Rick. Now that you’re back.”
Rick smiled. “You taking care of the girls?”
“It goes both ways as always, my friend. It’s the greatest job in the world.”
Just then, ten women of varying races dressed in tight provocative clothing walked down the stairs and into the living room and sat in the vast living room smiling. Balck, white, Latina, Asian. Susannah emerged from behind the bar with a tray of beers.
“All we’re missing is Tanya and we’d all be together again.”Susannah said flatly.
“Maybe in time.” Rick said.
“We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.” Jimmy said. He looked at the multi-racial Fleurdelits with lust. “Let’s party.”
4
Tanya read over the letter again. It was cold and impersonal – to break off a relationship with a “Dear John” letter. John was good to her, he had a decent job as an electrician. He made so much money that she really didn’t need to work at the airport but chose to so as not to go crazy with cabin fever.
She looked at John sleeping peacefully. She wanted to give him one last kiss on the lips but thought against it. Prolonging this goodbye wouldn’t serve anyone any good.
Staying here in this spacious home was against Wyrd, against Individual Destiny. She felt almost a void of nothingness in this simple life lacking excitement and plainly, life. It didn’t feel like living. An exultation of life was sorely lacking with John although this life was what the mundanes teach everyone to dream about.
“I’m sorry, John.” Tanya whispered softly as she taped the letter to the mirror of the large dresser. “I know that you would never understand. I never meant to hurt you. I truly hope that you find happiness some day.”
Tanya fought off the tears and walked off. John stirred in his sleep as if disturbed but settled back down. Tanya grabbed her small bag and walked out of the bedroom door, closing it softly behind her.
5
Rick awoke in the guest bedroom of the mini-mansion to the sharp knocking on the door.
He looked around. The three Fluerdelits were gone. His head was pounding from the dehydration caused by the previous night’s alcohol consumption and the release of pent-up sexual frustration.
“‘Tis some visitor tapping at my chamber door – only this and nothing more.” Rick said, quoting Poe.
“Hey, Rick!” Jimmy exclaimed. “You really should come downstairs.”
Rick threw on whatever he was wearing last night and ran downstairs but then slowed himself to a brisk walk.
He saw her first. Tanya was sitting on the love seat in the living room with her back towards the stairs.
Rick ran down and Tanya rose to greet him. They embraced and wept.
Words would only serve to obscure the Essence…